Day 7 – Your Opinion On Your Body & How Comfortable You Are With It
I like this one because it is a challenge to write about. I feel like accepting of our bodies is something that a lot of us deal with and I am definitely among those who struggle to love it.
Body image is hard because, regardless of whether or not you are an amazing person or the worst person alive, what is skin deep is the first thing notice about you. It’s not a great thing, judging a book by its cover and all, but we all do it to some extent or another and it creates a lot of insecurities.
From a young age, I never felt like I “fit” into the description of what was pretty. I never felt pretty and I always felt like it was a reason behind why I was bullied and disliked by others. Maybe it was. I felt that I would struggle to find someone to spend my life with because why would they want to be stuck with me and my body when they could have something better? Sometimes I still feel that way but not nearly as much at I used to.
I don’t particularly like my body. There are a lot of things I wish I could change about my body. Some of the things I can change with some determination and some change if habits, some of these changes I am currently implementing into my daily life in an attempt to be more comfortable in my own skin. The way you conduct yourself, dress and show confidence help too. But there are also things I can’t change about myself, and this is often where the problem lies. I can’t change my height, my build, my hands, my smile (I really, really don’t lip my smile. I used to cover my mouth when I smiled so no one could see). I can’t change the foundation of my body. There was a time when I despised myself so much that I bare the physical scars all over my body and I now have to live with that for the rest of my life. These have become characteristics of me and will always serve a reminder of how bad it got and how I survived. It’s hard but you learn to love the flaws, and when you do those flaws become characteristics and they become you.
So to answer the question of the prompt, no I am not comfortable with my body. I don’t think I will ever be 100% comfortable with it but I’m getting better at accepting my physical appearance for what it is, knowing what I can and can’t change about myself and learning to own every inch of what I have.
See you tomorrow for day 8!