Day 6 – Things you want to say to your ex
I’m not too excited about this one given where I am in life it seems like a rather unnecessary feat but a challenge is a challenge. I suppose anyone who knew a much younger me will know who this is aimed towards, but the effect will be the same for any reader. A lot of issues I now deal with in my adult life stem from the hell I put myself through when I was younger and this is actually something that was suggested to me by my counselor a while ago. I guess now I have the chance to do it. Let’s make it like a letter, because how else would you do this?
We were pretty crap to each other in the end. It wasn’t all so bad bad but everything ended on such bad terms even though it was mutual to split. We made each other unhappy. We made each other miserable and in hindsight it was probably because we were just no good for each other. You were obsorbed in your own life while I had mine and being together was never exactly comfortable. It would be so easy to nitpick at all the little things we did that got under each others skin but there seems little use to dwell on that now. We were far better friends than lovers and I wish we had realised that a lot earlier on because it would have saved us both the heartache. It maybe wouldn’t have burned so many friendships.
I was bitter about much of it, up until not too long ago. Well maybe bitter isn’t the right word to use but I couldn’t look fondly back on that time. We hurt each other, needlessly so. But now we’ve both moved on, it doesn’t hurt to think of you and it doesn’t leave a bitter taste in my mouth to talk about you. It hasn’t for a long time. We’ve both done a lot of growing up, enough that I doubt we would recognise each other. What I want to say to you is that I’m sorry for so much of it, I hope you are too, and I hope you’re well and happy in life. If I saw you in the street, I think now I would stop. I think now I might smile.